New Zealand | Me, Martha and Alzheimer's

Absence

Posted on April 23, 2020 Leave a Comment

Ninety percent of what I say at the moment are simple commands; “eat your food”“drink your water”“come on”“sit down”“stand up” On a good day it is peppered with “please”, “thank you”, and “you’re such a good girl”, on a bad day they are short and sharp, they hold any manner of things, anger, rage, frustration, […]

What will we lose?

Posted on March 31, 2020 Leave a Comment

I’ve become somewhat accustomed to loss, as humans I think we often tend to push our losses to the side and not deal with them, but as a caregiver I am constantly dealing with loss. It started with the loss of my Dad in 2013, and since then it has ranged between a drop of […]

Blessings in everything

Posted on November 25, 2017 1 Comment

Six months ago the thought of calling alzheimers a blessing would of filled me with rage. How dare those words tumble from someones mouth so ostensibly! Alzheimers is not, in any way a blessing.. and yet I uttered those exact words a few weeks ago to someone I didn’t know, she looked at me with […]

When the Universe speaks, you listen

Posted on April 19, 2017 Leave a Comment

I experienced my first ‘real life’ connection to the Universe a few years ago, I still remember it as if it was yesterday and can still bring about those feelings when I think back to the time. It was insane. It still makes me get shivers and it lead me down a path of no […]

2017 won’t be great..

Posted on December 30, 2016 Leave a Comment

I do have a choice, and that choice is to walk with her till the end regardless of how hard it will be.

Letters to my Mama… part 5

Posted on November 4, 2016 2 Comments

“what must it be like to have nothing? not even memories to visit in the night”

Friday nights

Posted on November 4, 2016 1 Comment

Disclaimer: This is an honest real account of what my life is like caring for a person with Alzheimer’s, and whilst I appreciate your concern please avoid giving me advice on what you think I ‘should‘ be doing. I have regular respite, I have regular counselling and have a great support network. Also, I swear […]

Alone

Posted on July 24, 2016 2 Comments

I’ve been going through some stuff, some psychological challenges, physical challenges, realisations and realities and have allowed life to get on top. It isn’t all bad, I have recently launched a new charity, a new business with a friend, and a new business importing crystals to NZ. I am at uni studying counseling and feeling […]

Mama, I miss you..

Posted on July 6, 2016 3 Comments

It has been a long time since I put fingers to keyboard in an attempt to write a blog post. It has felt as if I have gone through a war, an emotional war, both sides of my brain at war with my heart. Processing emotions is hard, I don’t know if it is hard […]