Depression Category

2017 won’t be great..

I do have a choice, and that choice is to walk with her till the end regardless of how hard it will be.

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The Grief journey..

There is the all too familiar saying “time heals everything..” is it true? Maybe, I don’t think so. I don’t think you ever heal. You learn to cope better, manage every day life better, you learn to smile again and re-emerge as the person everyone once you knew you as.

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When it hurts, it hurts

I am hurting. The pain is radiating from my heart and spreading down to the tips of my fingers and toes. It feels as if my hair aches and my finger nails are digging into me. This pain and grief feels familiar, common but also unfamiliar. I have not bathed in grief for a long […]

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We miss you

And when great souls die,
after a period peace blooms,
slowly and always
irregularly. Spaces fill
with a kind of
soothing electric vibration.
Our senses, restored, never
to be the same, whisper to us.
They existed. They existed.
We can be. Be and be
better. For the existed.”

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Ramblings of redundancy…

I got over it. I just simply let it go. ‘Fuck them’ I thought.

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Letters to my Mama… part 1

Firstly I wanted to tell you that I love you. I love you so much it often brings tears to my eyes just thinking about you.

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I’m sorry

Dear Mama, I’m sorry. I’m sorry for all that I have done to cause you grief. I’m sorry that I sometimes hate you. I’m sorry that sometimes I yell at you. I’m sorry for the thoughts I think. I’m sorry that you are no longer the mother I need. I miss you, Mama. I’m sorry […]

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Fear of the unknown

So I have done a bit of writing over the past few days and have published it to the blog, but not posted it up on Facebook. Fear is what is holding me back. Fear of judgement. What I don’t want is for you to think that it is like this all the time or […]

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