I’m sorry

Dear Mama,

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry for all that I have done to cause you grief.

I’m sorry that I sometimes hate you.

I’m sorry that sometimes I yell at you.

I’m sorry for the thoughts I think.

I’m sorry that you are no longer the mother I need.

I miss you, Mama.

I’m sorry you lost your husband, your lover and your best friend.

I’m sorry I lost my first true love.

I miss you Dad.

I’m sorry that I get angry for no other reason than I am angry at the world. Mama, I am not angry at you.

I’m sorry we can’t communicate anymore.

I’m sorry I didn’t get to know your stories before it was too late.

I’m sorry that I cannot always be the pillar of strength.

I’m sorry this is our life. I never wanted this.

I’m sorry.

K x

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