Alzheimers | Me, Martha and Alzheimer's

Mama, I miss you..

Posted on July 6, 2016 3 Comments

It has been a long time since I put fingers to keyboard in an attempt to write a blog post. It has felt as if I have gone through a war, an emotional war, both sides of my brain at war with my heart. Processing emotions is hard, I don’t know if it is hard […]

Am I your daughter?

Posted on March 30, 2016 2 Comments

And if she does not remember me, please do not be offended if she does not remember you.

The Grief journey..

Posted on March 7, 2016 1 Comment

There is the all too familiar saying “time heals everything..” is it true? Maybe, I don’t think so. I don’t think you ever heal. You learn to cope better, manage every day life better, you learn to smile again and re-emerge as the person everyone once you knew you as.

When it hurts, it hurts

Posted on February 15, 2016 Leave a Comment

I am hurting. The pain is radiating from my heart and spreading down to the tips of my fingers and toes. It feels as if my hair aches and my finger nails are digging into me. This pain and grief feels familiar, common but also unfamiliar. I have not bathed in grief for a long […]

A life worth living..

Posted on January 9, 2016 Leave a Comment

Dear Katie Hopkins, It has been almost a year since you wrote this (and various other things about dementia); “Dementia sufferers should not be blocking beds. What is the point of life when you no longer know you are living it? Bang me over the head.” I, fortunately, have only just stumbled across your careless […]

Letters to my Mama… part 4

Posted on January 5, 2016 Leave a Comment

Dear Mama, This morning your delusions had the best of you, when I came in to say Hi you were so sad. I sat with you and asked you what was wrong, with your beautiful eyes looking up at me, you whispered ‘I think I have to go away.’ I reassured you that you were […]

A few helpful tips..

Posted on December 15, 2015 1 Comment

This time of year is a hard time for families caring for someone with alzheimers/dementia. Services shut down or go to a skeleton staff, family and friends go away for the holiday season, it is hot, tiring and the days are long. Carers are often exhausted and will look that way. I know this from […]

Letters to my Mama… Part 2

Posted on September 16, 2015 2 Comments

As hard as it is, sometimes it is harder to be away from you. I miss your connection to me I miss you knowing me when you are with me and that is hard, but when you aren’t with me I just miss you and I don’t know which is harder.