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Mumbles and muttering…
Posted on June 4, 2015 1 Comment
I catch snippets of Martha talking hurriedly to herself. Chatting away, I turn my head quickly. ‘What are you talking about? Probing and invasive. ‘Nothing’ she mumbles. It reminds me of when I was a teenager, muttering under my breath and being caught out, my parents invasive, what was I saying? Nothing important. Now as […]
The Beast and its Beauty
Posted on June 1, 2015 Leave a Comment
Today I chased the sun and it led me here. It was magnificent. I sat on a rock that looked as if it had been purposely placed for this precise thing. To watch with great awe as the sun disappeared behind the mountains. It was cold and I felt chilled but I couldn’t look away, […]
Grateful
Posted on May 28, 2015 Leave a Comment
One year ago I made my first post. I had been contemplating starting a blog and then I did. In that year since, I have posted 32 blogs, made a bunch of new friends and lived several lives all in just a short 52 weeks. I have dragged Martha over the countryside, across seas and […]
Roundabouts and rollercoasters
Posted on May 17, 2015 1 Comment
She hates you. A phrase I have heard before and thought many times myself. I remember screaming it at my parents when I was young, probably more times than I would like to remember. Over petty things like not being able to go out, not being given the money I wanted, not being given what […]
We danced
Posted on May 12, 2015 3 Comments
Tonight I spied on you as you sang at the top of your lungs to Rod Stewart. You had turned the lights out and watched as Rod Stewart played piano and sung on stage across the screen. You swayed your hips like you were there in the crowd and it reminded me of your 50th […]
Are you my Mother?
Posted on April 25, 2015 1 Comment
Oh and where are you from? I’m from Tauranga I lived in Tauranga for a longggg time Really, what did you do there? Oh you know, this and that and who is your Mum and Dad? Well, Martha, it’s a long story, I’ll tell you another time This day has been building for a while, […]
She hates you…
Posted on January 22, 2015 Leave a Comment
She hates you. It was a joke. It was meant to be funny. She hates you. Three tiny words that have completely shattered me. She hates you. Just words at the end of the day. She hates you. All the insecurities of my thoughts have tumbled out and spilt before my eyes. She hates you. […]
Toilet paper patience…
Posted on January 20, 2015 Leave a Comment
For the 20th time today I have told Martha to put the toilet paper back in the bathroom. I go to use the bathroom and there is no toilet paper, I walk past the bathroom and there is no toilet paper. Martha has it stacked in her wardrobe like a prize. At 7pm I have […]
My Martha Tips (because I really do love a good list…)
Posted on December 23, 2014 2 Comments
I have spent the past few weeks in particular getting to know what makes Martha crazy. What brings on the hallucinations/delusions, what upsets and what calms her.. For each individual sufferer of alzheimers it will be different, they will have their own triggers. Martha and I usually get a break when Martha heads off to […]
Losing yourself
Posted on December 15, 2014 Leave a Comment
I sat in the car and watched Mum push the trolley to its bay, she turned and started to walk back towards me. She turned without hesitation and I watched her closely. It was about twenty steps and she had taken at least ten. A car was pulling out and she stopped, if she hadn’t […]
Me, Martha and Alzheimer's 